I’m just feel like my life is getting harder and harder and nothing is going to get better for me or anyone else around me at all, I want to stop being in misery and agony to stop, I’ll feel like I’m never actually will be actually experiencing joy and happiness. I’m never go a day without agony and pain I must experience. I don’t know if thing would get better but I’ll feel like it won’t, the pain never ends for me.